I reached my goal weight of 74kg in March 2011 – exactly 6 years
after Logan was born.
A total of almost 40kg gone…
At the beginning of 2011 I set myself 3 goals.
I wrote my goals in a small notebook that I carried in my
handbag – I could see it every time I went to get my wallet or my keys from my
Those goals were:
Enter the Weight Watchers Healthy Life Awards
Run 5k in less than 30mins
Be a sixties girl (weight less than 70kg)
I qualified to enter the Healthy Life Awards (HLA) when I reached
my goal weight on 21st March 2011.
My weight loss journey had changed my life & my hope was to be
able to inspire others to join this life changing adventure.
As I sat down to answer the application questions I was faced with
the realisation that I had never told this story before & I wasn’t actually
sure if I wanted to.
My story was not just about having lost 40 kilos…it wasn’t that simple.
My story was about an overweight five year old girl, an overweight teenager & a woman who had spent her 20s & her 30s battling her weight – a woman who had spent most of her life on a hideous weight loss/weight gain rollercoaster ride.
I was going to have to bare it all, I was going to have to
be honest & tell the whole, raw story!
I was going to have to reflect on
some very dark times & I just wasn’t sure if I was ready for that!
Yes, I’d lost 40 kilos but hadn’t I lost weight in the past?
Hadn’t I lost 15, 20 & even 25kg before…only to put it all
back on again (& some!).
So, why would it be any different this time?
Why would it be any different this time?
Why would it be any different this time?
This question filled my mind & as I began filling in the
entry form I still wasn’t certain that it WOULDN’T be different this
…but I did know that I was a hell of
a lot closer to being ‘there’ than I had ever been in my life!
I knew with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my being that
this HAD to be the last time!
I didn’t think that I could do it again - I just couldn’t…
decided that I needed an attitude overall so I started with my activity (or lack
I began by
changing the way I thought about exercise.
I went from thinking
‘exercise is something
I have to do to lose weight’
‘exercise makes me feel good & is
great for my health’
I found that
when I thought about it in terms of health rather than weight loss I was more
inclined to do it!
After all my goal was to be healthy right?
So I started setting goals!
My first exercise related goal was to run 5k!
Ambitious I know – I’d never ran 5 metres let alone 5 kilometres…
In fact, I’d only ever considered running something I had to do if there was a fire…
But I set my goal & I set about training for it.
I found an 8-week training program online & I was off…
We lived at Airlie Beach & the foreshore is nothing less than spectacular – I had a stunning backdrop to motivate me.
But living in the tropics had its challenges…when the weather was
good it was PERFECT but when the weather was bad it was HORRENDOUS!
In the two years we were in Airlie we lived through an earthquake, numerous floods & 3 cyclones, Ului, Anthony & Yasi
- the kids & I evacuated for Yasi. Ben was with the SES so he had to stay - it was a most harrowing time...
But I continued to train - I ran in the sun, I ran in the wind, I even rain in the rain (I
figured I was only going to get wet) – I didn’t let anything stop me. And in July
2010 I did my first 5k run. I did it in just over 36mins & I was SO proud
Never had I felt such elation as I crossed that finish line with
my beautiful family & friends waiting for me.
I did it! It didn’t matter that LOADS of people finished in front
of me, even the winner of the 10k race beat me! But I wasn’t competing with
anyone else that day, this was about ME & being the best that I could be…
I finished that race & raised almost $400 for The Cancer
Council in the process. I didn’t realise at the time how significant this fund
raising was but the following year my dear dad would be diagnosed with lung
After the race I continued to run & still do today. I love the
way it makes me feel – strong, healthy & free!
By Christmas 2010 I weighed 78kg. I’d dropped 9 kilos by simply
adding exercise to my day!
Those 9 kilos made all the difference to the way I looked &
the way I felt, my confidence soared…
I was almost at my goal weight, but that’s a story for next time… see you then.
2010 was a
year of BIG changes for me & my weight loss.
I had been
diagnosed with an enlarged thyroid & it was brimming with nodular goitre…
After numerous tests, scans & biopsies it was found to be free of cancer & although it was functioning normally, the specialists recommended its removal.
never noticed the ‘lump in my throat’ when I looked in the mirror but you can clearly see the enlarged gland in these photos.
reluctant to have it removed, my thyroid worked perfectly fine. I asked myself
why I would undergo surgery if it was merely for cosmetic reasons. Would I want
to take thyroid medication for the rest of my life simply to get rid of that
So, I got a second opinion!
the recommendation was the same but the specialist was a little more convincing
with his arguments for its removal. My thyroid was enlarged & it was
OK, I get it now – let’s get this sucker out!
removal is a relatively safe procedure – they simply slit your throat, the gland
pops out & the surgeon removes it.
One of the risks of this surgery is nerve damage which could result in a permanent hoarse or weak voice.
There is also the risk that the entire
thyroid may not be removed during surgery & it may grow back resulting in further surgeries…
surgery in February 2010.
My surgery was successful, no husky voice & no
sign of it growing back.
My thyroid levels continue to be normal (almost 5 years on) thanks to daily medication.
thought, pre-surgery, that I was relatively fit & healthy even though I
carried some excess weight – I had lost 25kg after all!
So, I was
completely SHOCKED that it took my body so long to recover after surgery. I’d
thought I would be back on my feet in no time at all – boy was I wrong!
This health scare was the catalyst for a major change in my weight loss plan.
I’d always thought that losing weight was about how I looked.
It suddenly occurred to me that losing weight wasn’t about vanity - it was about having a longer, healthier life!
small children, 5 & 3, I realised that I was:
this point I had managed to lose over 25kg without doing very much exercise.
attitude towards exercise was that it was something I HAD to do if I wanted to
I remember the moment like it was yesterday, my
seriously like a light went on & I could suddenly see things more clearly…
It was the
moment I realised that this was the only body I was ever going to have & if
I didn’t look after it on-one would!
belonged to me & only me.
I was responsible for the condition it was in
& it was my sole responsibility to make the changes that needed to be made!
So, it will
come as no surprise to you, I’m sure, that the turning point came when my
now that I had been conditioned to think a certain way & that my belief systems
were firmly in place.
I had always been overweight – how could I possibly expect
to be a healthy weight?
conditioning was to think that eating healthy & exercise were things I had
to do for as long as it took to lose the weight.
So I started
next time to find out what impact changing my thinking had on my weight loss.
I was 25
& I had a completely unrealistic image of myself. I weighed 79kg & I
thought I was HUGE!
To put it in
perspective - I was wearing size 12 clothes…
And so I embarked on my first DIET…
I joined a Jenny Craig Weight Loss Centre & lost 16kg.
This put me at the bottom of my healthy weight range at 63kg.
I spent the next 15 years trying (unsuccessfully) to maintain this weight loss.
I hadn’t learned anything, after all I was simply eating the packaged food I was told to eat…
I still had
no idea about good nutrition or the benefits of regular activity.
weight-loss lessons were that fats & carbs were BAD & should be avoided
at all costs!
marketing message I received had different advise:
§don’t eat after 7pm!!!!
And so I
tried them all…I did EVERY ‘diet’ on the planet!
The Atkins Diet, Tony Ferguson,
Lite n’ Easy, Jenny Craig, pills, potions, injections & shakes…
and I joined
Weight Watchers MANY, MANY times…
fluctuated between 63 & 94kg from my early 20’s to my late 30’s. I
from a size 8 to a size 16 & everywhere in between…
When I met
my husband Ben in 2004 I weighed 86kg (I was married previously but that’s
another story for another blog…). What can only be described as a whirlwind
romance saw us married & pregnant within a year!
from my corporate position in the city, sold my house & left Sydney!
born & bred in Sydney – I was 37 years old & I’d never lived anywhere
I moved to Hay (in the Riverena Region of NSW), a town with a population,
at the time, of 3,500.
I LOVED my new, simpler, happier life! I was pregnant, I
was happy & before I knew it I’d gained 30 kilos!
I tipped the
scales at an impressive 117kg full-term!
Our beautiful baby boy, Logan, entered
the world to the delight of all in March 2005 & I was so
I had a beautiful healthy baby, I had a wonderful loving
husband & I had a sweet country home – what more could a girl want?
was taken a couple of months after Logan was born – I weighed 107kg & I was
wearing size 20 pants…
photo now is heart-breaking because at the time I had no idea that I looked
like that! I don’t recognise that girl…
There is a
trick we play with ourselves – it’s called denial.
I knew that I was heavier
than I’d ever been before but I never acknowledged just how much weight I had actually
I was down
to 104kg when I discovered I was pregnant with our second baby. I was 40 at the
time so we weren’t mucking around with this baby thing…
determined not to gain the same amount of weight with my second pregnancy so I
started a weight loss support group in our small town.
We would meet once a
week, weigh & measure, share recipes & support each other.
pleased to have only gained 13kg & delivered a gorgeous baby girl, Mia
Rose, in November 2006.